T is for Tiger

Today: The end of something.

So, I'm single.

The situation is just sad. I'm not sure how to feel other than just really depressed and let down. The time that I have spent gathering up feelings for this person has caused me to carry something that feels like a dead body in my heart. I'm very sorry if this entry doesn't entirely make sense: I'm not really firing on all cylanders, so to speak.

Suffice to say that I don't know how to feel. The universal conservation of emotion would suggest that i'm in a massive conversion process right now, transferring all of that stuff-of-love into other kinds of emotions, and possibly some tears. I wish things were different. I wish things were more simple. I'm sure he does, too.

I want to be sure of some things, but I'm afraid of the answers. I don't want to find out that I should be angry. I'm afraid.

But, I know I'm better than this.

I still love. I still believe in love.


Tomorrow I may be angry--very angry.